Matchbox 20 always reminds me of a certian ex of mine. The songs of inadequacy and ucertianty, of loving someone who you know is too good for you. Of loving someone who drives you completely crazy.
i can listen to this album and not get lost, now.
she said, I don't know why you ever would lie to me
like i'm a little untrusting
when i think the truth is gonna hurt you
and I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
you couldn't stand to be near me
when my face just don't seem to want to shine
"Oh, I know who you look like!"Who?
"That chick from Labyrinth!"
Jennifer Connelly?
"Yeah, her!"
Oh, my.
You see, Jennifer Connelly was my major object of lust growing up. She was what I defined an attactive woman as looking like. I still have a deep fetish for people with dark brown hair and pale skin, still.
I had a crush on her before I really knew what crushes were all about. sometime soon, i'm planning on having a Jennifer Connelly movie-fest. ohmyes.
so. some random guy thinks i look like Jennifer Connelly. NEAT.
Cheetah's staying with me for a little bit, and it's been fun to have her around. She's such a different energy than i usually encounter—open and extroverted and proud of it. She's a fun person to be around, she is.And in other news, I got mail this week from Zephyr asking, "Can we just HAVE you sunday?" Of course, my dear! So we're going to a RenFaire, to a SPIN meeting, and then gaming. This is going to be a lot of fun, i think, but I'll have to remember to bring some clothes with me to change into after the faire.
And on Tuesday, my driving test. Repeat after me: i will not hold my breath, I will not hold my breath, i will not....
By the way, Origins Confused Skin Care Pair is a gift from the gods. I smooth it on, it tingles and disappears, and my cheeks don't get all dry and my nose doesn't get all shiny. It's a miracle, and worth every damn penny i spent on it. My skin is no longer confused—it is now calm and collected, looking towards the future with a purpose in mind. Hot damn!I know i'm kind of getting sidetracked, with the petty details of my life, but that's stress. Once i have my license, I'll be able to loose my hold on myself and relax, and i feel sure that the words will flow again as they have before.
Only a few days left.
You know, I'm glad I didn't discover Anne Sexton until now:O Mary, open your eyelids.
I am in the domain of silence,
the kingdom of the crazy and the sleeper.
There is blood here.
and I haven't eaten it.
O mother of the womb,
did I come for blood alone?
O little mother,
I am in my own mind.
I am locked in the wrong house.
Anne, with her father, is out in the boat
riding the water
riding the waves on the sea
