I'm officially going on hiatus as of today.

I'm having surgery on Wednesday, and after that I probably won't be willing to sit at the computer for very long for a few days (not to mention that Chris will be working from my house and thus the computer will be busy. I will be watching a lot of videos and sleeping a lot.).

But it's more than that. I can always tell when there's something I'm not addressing because the torrent of words dries up, as if unresolved issues block the pipeline. I know what these issues are, and I fear them. Because there are no neat resolutions to them, no way to stitch it all together and call it good. It's currently scabbed over, but a scratch will open it again.

Best, perhaps, to let it heal into scar tissue. If I don't think about it, don't pick at it, maybe it won't hurt any more.

I am doing my best, you see. Doing my best to get along in the situation I'm in. And sometimes doing my best means not rocking the boat, means waiting until you can deal with things quietly, means simply waiting and seeing what happens next.

I'll be back, of course. It might be a little while, but i'll be back. The best way to know when I return is to join the notify list. Otherwise, I'll see you all when I get back.

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