Oh, jeez.
Well, work has now spiralled completely out of control, and needs some Tender Loving Affection (not to mention the Wrath of a God-like Kris) rained upon it. However (and here is the catch) I am still feeling semi-overwhelmed myself and certainly not in any mood to sit and plan the shitstorm that needs to happen.
However. I will cope. I feel less overwhelmed than angry now, and I have figured out that while caffeine addiction may well be a Bad Thing, it is, at this point, completely necessary.
On a more positive note, I went to the doctor the day before yesterday. i was trying not to hyperventilate and feel enraged on the way over, and when i got to the office i had about 15 minutes to kill. i sat in the chair with my eyes close, and grounded and centered. Then I just relaxed into myself, trying to be unalienated from my body. It sorta worked. At least when I went into the doctor's office I wasn't ready to kill the next person who said anything about HTML to me.
And--a nice bonus--the doctor agrees that my back is all fucked up and massage therapy will help.
So after we chat for a bit, I hop on the scale and she does my height (66 inches exactly, still--it's good to know that some things don't change) and then I do the little weighing thing. I've lost about 15 pounds since March, which made me happy for the rest of the day. for a really long time, i was stuck at the weight I was at. Now, it seems, my metabolic setpoint is again doing wacky things and this makes me happy.
behold the power of not being depressed!
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There is a reason the people at work love me. this reason is that I can keep amazing amounts of knowledge un my head and reveal it at just the right time.
me to hosie today: "This project should not mean that we have a horrid quality of life. We need a weekend!"
Hosie to me: "Can we take the weekend after this one off?"
Me: "yeah."
Hosie: "send us all home, take away our keys, and tell us not to come back till Monday! that would rock!"
The fact that we look upon weekends as rare luxuries says volumes about our lives.
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I decided I was tired of waiting for sendmail to cooperate with me to start up my update list. So, if you want to get notified of updates to this page and you don't wanna wait for my sendmail woes to subside, go here and check out the instructions.
Ohyeah. i added a person to cast.
