Go to http://www.godhatesfredphelps.com/. Now. Thanks.
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sleep deprivation is catching up with me, big and bad. i can feel a crash coming. My shoulders and legs ache with it, and every time I cough, a small muscle in my shoulders makes its presence known.
This weekend, i am going home, turning off the phone, and sleeping until i wake up. I know my body needs to recover, and i have the time and space to let it do so gracefully now.
And then: next week. Movement of Our Present Darkness to this server. (I hope.) Journal redesign. Seattle Bandwidth design. dHTML mouseovers for this site. (Maybe? maybe.)
Perhaps getting some stuff rattling around in my head down on paper....updating the portions of this site that desperately need it.
I've identified the problem i've been having, this feeling of living on the outside of my own life. now i have to figure out what to do about it. Going to Iowa will help. Sleep will help. Having alone time, me-time, will help immensely.
i forget, much of the time, that I need time that is designated for me and me alone. away from other people. I'm an introvert who is often in danger of forgetting it. i have become much more extroverted in the past few years, more at ease with people, less shy.
The price is fatigue; I am willing to pay. But i am so tired right now, and so numb.
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Urgh. i'm whining. i'm sorry, I'll stop.
Shouldn't see anything new from me this weekend. I need to recover.
